Our family has struggled physically and emotionally for the last 9 years. We fought cancer with Colt, had some health scares and injuries with Luke, and Jolea fought several medical battles herself. Bre fought emotionally against people whom she thought cared for her, but it turned out that all they really wanted for her is failure. We fought financially to keep a company going in a economical crisis. It always seemed to be one battle after another and we kept coming out at the bottom.
When God opened this door for us, it seemed unrealistic at the time. I couldn't comprehend giving up everything we had worked so hard for, and leaving behind everything we had ever known including our families and the security of my job. After much discussion, we did it. We sold the house, and pretty much all it's contents and moved 7 hours away. I prayed and prayed about this move and asked God for confirmation and he just kept pointing me here. I wondered how I could do this. How could I leave everything, everything Colt had ever known. These things kept me close to him. He was buried there. I wouldn't be able to go to his graveside every week or everytime I needed to feel close to him. I couldn't see past all those things to what God was trying to do. I was so consumed with material things and my feelings.
It reminds of the story of the rich young ruler. God told him what to do and he wasn't willing to give up everything and relinquish control. He walked away. He went the other direction. What if he had went the direction God was sending him?
I often found myself trying to control everything in our lives rather than relinquish that control to the One who is in control. It was hard, but I stepped back and gave it all over to God, and everything changed. He took us to a new place, but to a place that we are learning to love. A place where we are simply able to live with no distractions. A place where we are encouraged and our children are encouraged. A place where although we miss our family, they are able to visit and also able to rejoice in the fact that we are ok.
Just like the young ruler, we could not see past the love of our possessions, our pride, or the lifestyle we thought we deserved to be living. Not all of us will be asked to sell everything that we have or move away, but all of us are commanded to set aside any idol that may be present in our lives. We must all give up relying on our own efforts to earn salvation and instead embrace the grace we've been given.
We've embarked on this journey, took every hard step, trusted God with every area of our life, and are finally on the road from brokeness to wholeness.