This day completely snuck up on us this year. I can't believe it's been 6 years since the passing of our sweet little Colt. We miss him so much. It's been pretty rough going through all this with Luke during this time as well. So many people have told us how strong we are… how brave we must be to take on all that we have. I never really thought we were brave, and most of the time we are not strong. What options do we have? We can either wallow in the heartache or we can praise Him through the storms. Christ took on so much more than we could ever imagine, and He never promised us that this life would be easy. He never promised that we would never experience pain or heartache.
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
I look all around and see people with normal lives, normal families…and I long for that normalcy. Yet I fail to look at the wonderful gift that is my life. I fail to see all of the amazing moments that no other family will have because they are not my family, they do not have our “issues” and they are not living our lives. I often fail to see the big picture..the picture that is my life.
There are times I lay in bed at night and feel the weight of my life on my shoulders and then here come the tears. I think about my family, how much they've gone through and how much more they are going to go through. It is easy to drown in those crazy thoughts. Yet it's in those moments, I feel Him gently nudge me and quietly say “I am still here.” If I let Him, He will guide my footsteps and guard my heart.
The choice is mine.
Nothing can take Him off of His throne…
We love and miss you Joey Colt Crow!